Retrace every wrong move that I made, I would…
Yeah, I’m back to listening to Linkin Park. It’s actually kinda good, especially Hybrid Theory… Anyway.
I screwed something up again. Well, I must have, cause if I didn’t, I have no fucking idea what’s happened.
I got into a… verbal fight, so to say. Naturally, it was caused by my oh-so-high principles and their general asshole-ness. (not sure if that’s a word, but w/e)
A basic rundown of the events: I felt completely excluded from some of my friends’ conversations. They were also being assholes to everyone they met, including people I like as well as people I don’t. I decided to try and explain to one of them – the one i figured was most capable of discussing things in a civilized way – just why me and another girl were upset about what was happening.
Long story short, he told us we were wrong and inconsiderate, and also that it was our fault. Then he proceeded to leave in the middle of what I thought was a conversation. Afterwards, he explained that he couldn’t possibly talk to me about this without telling me something else, which would thoroughly upset me. At this point i was practically begging him to tell me – i was upset already, figured he couldn’t make it worse. But no, no – he won’t tell me.
We haven’t spoken ever since.
Now, someone please explain me: how on earth am I supposed to talk to him, have fun with him, etc. when he apparently has some kind of (and not just something minor, either) problem with me? Argh. Anyway.
What do i do at times like this? Do I pretend nothing happened? Technically, that’s not even an option… I can’t just play pretend like that.
Do I confront him? I’ve already done that, several times. I’m convinced it’s completely useless. I might be wrong here, but (recently) he’s been known to give people who follow him around names, such as lapdog, or something similar.
Or do I wait for him to ” make a move”? That’s just what I’m doing right now, and guess what, it’s not working.
Guess I suck at this. I should’ve been born the nice little girl who has no problem with small talk, and who has a memory of 5 fucking minutes.
Sorry for the whine-fest again. Don’t like, don’t read.
By the way, I’ve also been listening to Pink Floyd. It’s like hella-awesome, but I’m sure you know that already.
Now go watch The Wall if you haven’t already. Or at least listen to this song. Seriously. 
Dalymar
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